flower power

i am now starting to feel the tension of preparation..i think i need some crochet flowers..i can try to do it..but maybe Busu can do it better..haha..will ask her later.. :-)

no littering please!

a lady lower down her car window, washes her hands and then throw out the mineral water bottle out to the street..after that, throws out the tissue..HOW IRRESPOSIBLE!..i was so pissed off to see that incident yesterday night..it's not that hard for you to keep your trash a little longer in the car and throw it when you see a bin..i think Malaysian needs to be educated more about littering..perhap to start with a no-street-littering day..

last few days was worse..i saw a man, spit on the floor...it's in the middle of Midvalley Megamall!!..wtf???..that is pure yucky, man!..i think we should stop all these going green campaign and start again with no-littering and no-spitting campaign..it's purely disgusting!..EUWWWW~

wayfarer - checked!

i couldn't resist myself from thinking of wayfarer last week, so i went to the Mines and get myself a wayfarer..yay!..not only that, i also went for a window shopping (kind of short on $$ :P)..so i end up trying these 2 clothes..i think it's nice, but i prefer the checkered dress better..what do you think?..

next item...headband or colored jeans perhaps?..hehehe...as one of my best friend say..

"COO'!!!" 

(^__^)Y..love you babe!hehe

things i want in my closet

suddenly i feel like i want these item...haha..i know it's sudden, but wadehel~~ (^_^)Y..ok..let's start..

colored jeans

i think colored jeans is so cool..look at these gorgeous colorful jeans worn by miss posh spice..i want one!

pic from google image

headband

now i think this is so hippie cool..but some says it's a no-no..i guess it depends on how your style is..if you're an ashley-mary-kate-messy type..it'll probably look cool..anyway, i want this one too..hehe..but i think this style is kind of over by now..-___-"

pic from http://celebrityfashionblog.blogspot.com

wayfarer

no matter whether it's sunglasses or clear glasses..it's trendy and it'll compliment your looks..hehe..hide away those eyebags, etc..plus it'll give you the nerdy-coolness look..what more can you ask for??..

 pic from google image

bright colors clothes

I've always been a fan of bright colors..orange, yellow, pink..and i plan to fill my closet with bright colorful clothes again..i've been wearing a lot of black since i've put on weight..yikes..let's get colorful again!

pic from http://stylehog.com/

well..i sure hope i can get those items..hehe...anyone wants to buy me these stuff??..(^__^)Y

shit happens anyway

it's holiday and i was enjoying my day off with my mom and sis...went to bought a beautiful cloth that is the same as what i had in my mind..nice!..expensive tho..but what the heck..at least i got it..anyhooo...as soon as I arrived at home..shit just happen..

i had a BIG fight with my bro..i have never been so fucking mad at him..to make it short...both of us went amuk..i am so frustrated with him..well..decide not to talk to him now..WHATEVER!!! shit happens even at your home, even when you've had a good day in the morning..

Note of the day: when people is mad at you...YOU MUST BE DOING SOMETHING WRONG..at least a little bit..understand????

Red & White Affair~

Yay..Annual Dinner!!..I'm so looking forward for this event..this year my company has decided to bring us to Colmar Tropicale, Bukit Tinggi..and I'm incharge of the arrangement of the dinner party..cool!

At first we decided for a black, white & red party theme, but then I decided to exclude the black..so white & red..I think it'll be nice..I'm planning to make a space for a red carpet moment

 with the backdrop and stuff...

and...i was thinking of a cup cakes for everyone..how's that sound?

.. really hope we can pull this off..and I hope I can win something this time..the prizes are great!!!!..hint: PSP for grab! \(^_^)/

Yesterday, at work

9am

open emails, flagged all have-to-reply emails, check my personal emails

10am

replying all emails..working..working

11am

still working..boss send email.."Please follow up all these leads I got from exhibition"..total = 47 emails..shit

1230pm

lunch

130pm

working..sending emails...boss called.."Don't forget to send the list of leads to our partner"..sending list..working..working..

2pm

working...manager send email.."Please handle this - exhibition forms, etc".. (-_-")

3pm

working..collegue came.."Ey..can help ahh?..You check this manual..last time you checked one..dunno I put where la..help me ya?..Thanks."  (-___-")

4pm

working..working..more emails coming in..(-_____-")

WOI..BILE NAK SIAP KEJA AKU NI???? (+_____+)

new look

i have been thinking of cutting my hair since a few weeks back. At last, I went to cut my hair yesterday and the result is great!..i love it..

\(^o\) (/o^)/ *dancing...

i've always wanted some high-light and i'm finally getting it..yataaaaa!!

what feeling is this?

it's a mix kind of feeling..

a lil bit of angry, a slight of jealousy, a pinch of relief..

how do you explain THAT?

Rhythm oh Rhythm

I changed my blog background again. Hoping this time I will be posting more rather than changing the background again and again.. :) 

I'm suppose to go for my salsa class tonight. Last week class was a disaster. I danced terribly and my feet hurt badly. I hate the shoe, I hate of not knowing the steps, and I hate making mistakes. I used to love this and waiting for Tuesday to come, but now I don't even bother showing up... =( 

I want to dance, but I just lost my rhythm..oh rhythm..please come soon!

My Favourite People

this video is done by Ms Shaxu Sabri..i miss my friends~~~

facelift!

yay..my blog is new again..:-)..yippee...i have work to do..i'll continue blogging very soon..hopefully \(^_^)/

travel, sleepover and futsal

obviously it has been a while since the last time i updated my blog..hehe..a lot of things happened since then..

1. i cut my hair short
2. went to Langkawi
3. went for a family vacation with my family and qaf to Pulau Lang Tengah
4. went to Kuala Selangor and up to Bukit Melawati where the monkeys are all over..scary.. (-_-")
5. sleepover at Sri Acapella (a.k.a Sri Chendana :p) with my bestest girlfriends..
6. my first ever futsal game..i scored..i scored!!!..

hmm..i think that covers it all..hehe..the sleepover and futsal was great..the sleepover session, (eventhough we didn't really sleep until 5 o'clock in the morning) was fun...poor jib's cat - weewee..asyik nak lari je bile nampak kitorang..kekeke...he must be relieved now that we all are gone..hehehe..

i never thought that futsal is gonna be fun..hehe..maybe it's because i'm playing with my friends..haha..i scored once and it's enough to make my day..yay!!..maybe next time i'll score more..hehe..i'll upload the pics when i get it from nana..

though everything was fun, i am now suffering..i have blisters and my voice sounded like a she-man..hehe..my body is aching all over since i haven't had any exercise in god knows how long..haha..but hey..i did good for the first game..eventhough i'm out of breath most of the time..kekeke..

ok then..back to work..i am sleepy and tired~~ (~_~)

this is my ride..haha..a motor-bike which i'm not sure is still working or not at the futsal court.

warming up..haha..me and shaxu dah gile menunggu kat footy futsal yg x bukak2 until 11..tido la tu sume!

H.o.L.i.D.@.y!!!!

gosh..it has been a while since i last wrote here..i'm pretty much busy with my work plus i'm kindda lazy to update on things.. ;P

anyway, tonight me and my family will be off to pulau lang tengah!..yay..we'll take a bus and will arrive tomorrow morning..i hope everything went well.. :) ..can't wait to be in an island where the beach is clean (hopefully!) and everything is nice..i'll upload the pictures when i get back..weee...holiday at last!!!!

D.E.C.I.S.I.O.N

yay!..qaf is back!..i'm so happy to see him..waited for so long for him to come back..we went back to melaka..everything is good..i hope he'll enjoy it..

i think my life is complicated..well..who doesn't right?..walking towards the adult-marriage-commitment line is so hard..one minute you think you are not sure of your decision..another minute you will say it's the right thing..then come other people saying maybe you should think again..they are not so sure..then come another party saying..you should decide now..see?..making decision is hard..you don't know it's right or wrong..until it happens..

..i have a mixed feeling everytime i make decision for my life..and i hate it..now i have decided..not knowing what's in store for me in the future..maybe it's happiness and maybe everything will shattered..but i will do my best to make sure everything is in place..i hope everyone pray for my life happiness not adding doubts to me..i guess everyone wants the best for me and wants to give their opinion on my decision..but i don't ask for any opinion..do i?..

well..here's my latest fav song from Beyonce..

Listen - Beyonce

Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own


All 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

playing stupid!

..sometimes we tend to forget or maybe just being ignorance of how stupid we can be..there are saying " if you love someone, let them go..if they are meant to be yours..they'll eventually came back"..true or not..i don't know about this..but what i know is that if someone that you love went away from you..let him go and don't call him to say that he can come back anytime..i mean that would make you look like a desperate-single-and-depressed person..am i right?? RIGHT!!..just move forward and if it really meant to be..it will come..naturally..~

..it's unbelieveable how some people ( the "people" i refer to are men)..can be so muke tembok and come to see his ex and act like nothing have or had happened between them..that would makes them a very ignorance and a mean person...right?..he dumped her..and then he came again..saying that he has problems of his own and then take advantage of her again with no intention of getting back together..hmmm..sounds mean to me...i mean..have he no brain??..ok..that might be true..but doesn't he have heart?...but then again..maybe he just don't have both..

..you know, it's frustrating to see how a girl that you have known all your life can be so weak with a person name guy..i mean..she's nice, lovely and intelligent..all in one good package..but she falls apart just by one mean guy..who doesn't care on how she feels..doesn't care about her dreams and her hope towards him..gosh..what a freaking jerk he can be..honestly..i can smack his dummy head anytime!..seriously!

so to all the girls out there..wake up!..it's the new era..don't let people picked on you..don't let them played you..like my friend, nanayau said..

"Another downfall to this life partner thingy is that at certain level of the relationship, we tend to forget that the life partner is indeed, just another unique human being, with mind of its own. He or she is not a possession that can be molded or instructed as we desire, to cater and bend with our own needs and interests.
She needs the space. He needs the time. We are not entering the couple-dom to become the ultimate twins. It's about loving the differences, and grow, and keeping each other happy."

..so whatever happened, you decide what's best for you and I believe that only you can make your life better and not complicated..because in the end, it's you who made the decision and have to live with it..~~

CRAPPY MONDAY

..today is officially a CRAPPY MONDAY..not a good start for the week...damn.. going back now..goodbye CRAPPY MONDAY!..

welcome 2007!!

happy new year to all..2007 is here and i'm thankful and grateful to be alive..alhamdulillah~..

my last 2 weeks in 2006 was great!..qaf came back and we went to pangkor for holiday..me, qaf & my sis..the journey was quite long..but it was worth while to be able to relax in pangkor..since it was christmas holiday, pangkor was packed..luckily qaf booked at a private island..pangkor island beach..and we are able to get the ferry without having to push everybody..haha..thanks af~..

it was refreshing to see the sea..coconut trees and white sand..though there's not much to do except for swimming, i enjoyed my stay there..we went for sea kayaking..which is a new experience for me..it was fun and i was quite nervous thinking "what is i fell into the sea??!!"..haha..it's ok..qaf is there..he wouldn't leave me drowning, right?..right!..we sat at a swing seeing sunset while singing..and i had some time to chat with qaf..it was great..i like!

then came eid ul adha..by this time, fozz has left us for Istanbul..wuwuwu..me and my aunt went back to melaka..we have a family gathering on 31st dec..makan2 session with all my cousins on my father side..well..the usual faces la..but another 2 extra faces..1 is my cousin's daughter and another one is my cousin's wife..this cousin of mine, is the same age as me, but his wife is 29 yrs..and much..much taller than him..hihi..org kate..rezki murah nanti..no comment~~..anyway..i didn't even know her name..my cousin just didn't bother to introduce her to me and not even say Hi to me..so why should i bother, right?..right!..hehe..so that nite, it's just me, my bro and my other cousin..gossiping and stuff..the usual..and eating like crazy!!..

good news..my brother has a gf!..haha..at last..he showed me his gf photo..she's the cutey type la..fair skin and sweet face..good luck!!..haha..

well..i guess my 2006 ends smoothly..ends with happy faces and happy thoughts..hoping 2007 will be a better year for me..amin!!..of course, to you too!..

ohh..i forgot to update on our picnic and mandi2 session at serendah waterfall a.k.a templerkai..haha..i need to get the photos from aiza mor la..i'll upload some soon..~~

to my love

This song is dedicated to my love, Qaf Zainuddin

Tercipta untukku - Ungu

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu

I miss you..

skin

wuwuwu..i have to change my blog skin as the last one has problem with photo bucket..damn..well..i like this skin too but why is there is this white space??..i tried to change the coding..hehe..but no luck...if only i have photoshop and i have the time to alter this....sigh~

anyway..the past 2 weekends was great..qaf came back for both weekend..air asia must be happy to have a good customer like my bf..haha..last weekend was tia's birthday party..so busu had planned a party for her with all the balloons and cakes and banners..tia got a lot of presents too!..she must be really happy..haha..before the birthday party, me, qaf and airol (my ukm friend) went to bukit beruntung area for a wedding..my ukm friends got married..i met some of my classmates which didn't recognize me~..haha..i have to say "oi"..then only they said.."eh..natt..x perasan...ko dah lain la.."..hmm..what does that means..haha..it must be the fat la!..damn..(well..it's ok la..since i didn't remember their names!..:p)..we stayed a while..waiting for my friend to make her appearance..she looked calm and nice..the make up also looks natural and beautiful..so congrats to eija and arif..i just waved to both of them and walked to my car..i need to send airol back to ukm..hehe..

ohh..here's something to share about..jib gave this to us..something to think about..

If you love someone because you think that he or she is really gorgeous . .
..then it's not love . .
..it's - Infatuation..
If you love someone because you think that you shouldn't leave him because others think that you shouldn't . . .
..then it's not love . .
..it's - Compromise..
If you love someone because you think that you cannot live without his touch . . .
..then it's not love . .
..it's - Lust..
If you love someone because you have been kissed by him . . .
..then it's not love . . .
..it's - Inferiority Complex..
If you love someone because you cannot leave him thinking that it would hurt his feelings...
..then it's not love..
..it's - Charity..
If you love someone because you share every thing with him...
..then it's not love...
..it's - Friendship..
but if you feel the pain of the other person more than him even when he is stable and you cry for him...
..that's - LOVE..
if you get attracted to other people but stay with him without any regrets...
..that's - LOVE..
If you let him go knowing that he has to go but he doesn't want to...
..that's - LOVE..

so have you found your LOVE? i have..*wink*